Thanks Lexie,
You're right but I just feel,scared and daunted about what I have to go through to get to where I want to be. I feel like I've been through so much already but I want better for my children. I honestly feel like I don't know which way is up. Tomorrow I'll probably feel better. I know that staying is out of the question and leaving is imperative but today I feel like a child inside and want someone to take care of me (never going to happen and always feel better when I do stuff for myself anyway).
Safe to be vulnerable here though right?