Thank you all.
You know, I feel so sad today. Obviously I am dealing with pregnancy hormones too (today I have had a lot of criticism levied at me for being different now that I'm pregnant) but I think I'm really living through a thunderstorm of realization about how utterly sh*t most of my life has been. Not being self pitying just feeling a bit stunned. I've always had it denied that anything was that bad and if it was then I should be examining myself for the reasons why.
What shape am I? Who the f**k am I on the inside? And how do I make this journey without exploding?
Imagine, I'm 37 next week and I don't know who I am. Like waking up from a nightmare into a nightmare.
I feel so sad