I surrendered. I was powerless over alcohol.
There was always something or someone that caused me to keep my head just ever so slightly above booze but when that was no more I started drowning.
I had to sink to the bottom and pull the plug. By pull the plug I mean get help and accept that help. I could no longer trust myself so I placed my trust first in AA. Then in my sponsor. Then in a HP. Now I have all three on my side of the playing field along with some pretty special and amazing people that I have met along the way. I am grateful for them all.
I have to do the work but they are there to support and cheer me on. I would not be were I am now without them and my HP.