I agree with LexieCat. I think closure is overrated. We broke up and that is my closure.
All of these comments are very helpful. I have good days and bad days.
The whole detaching process will take time because he is kind of like my drug and I am used to him. Now I am focusing on creating new memories. Do I think of him? YES. Do I care about him? YES. Do I miss him? YES! However, I've found myself reading obsessively and learning about alcoholism and his disease, that I actually forgot to focus on what I like.
This disease is FASCINATING and as I continue to move forward I just wish him well along every single alcoholic in this world, because it is certainly a disease not easy to live with.