Anxious
Whenever I think of never speaking to my exagf again I get anxious. I'm pretty sure we'll never talk again since she has charges for stealing and pawning my stuff and I have a stupid harassment charge. I know, I know, why the heck would I even want to talk to her again. I guess because I have issues and need to work on myself which I am doing. It just stinks because I get anxiety almost a panic attack when I think of her never talking to me again and just living her life without even acknowledging anything. I know it will get easier and I just need to get through each day. This has been the absolute hardest thing for me. This is no normal break up. I'm 48 years old and have been through A LOT in life but nothing like this. Wow did this catch me off guard and through me for a real loop. Kicked my butt bad. Thanks everyone for being here and listening.