I'm in the same place! Just got broken up with a week ago because he needs to focus on his sobriety and now worry about our relationship. I too am devestated and it's so hard for me to focus. There's always that hope they'll stay sober and will regret letting you go. Another reason why I joined this forum. I keep thinking about him and getting upset when I heard in an alanon meeting "God did for me what I could not do for myself" I hate to think this is the end for us, but it makes sense. I know we all have a long road ahead of us but it does feel better knowing we're not alone and there are people we can count on!