Zenme -- where is that thread?
Thanks everybody! I have good days and bad days. The plan is no contact for sure and he actually knows that and is respecting it. It is more me, my brain, my thoughts what is bothering me right now.
I know he is an EX and I shouldn't be "worrying" about him, the future, the ladies, etc. However, I think this is all part of the coping process and its natural to think all of this. We broke up a month ago so it is fairly recent.
I've been reading lots of alcoholism, which is great, but I came to realization that I am focusing more on reading and trying to understand his disease, rather than spending the energy into my own recovery.
This whole process is very painful because I don't know where to draw the line. Time will tell and help me heal for sure. In the mean time I have to cope with every emotion.