Thkyou everyone you've put me solidly back on my decided path.
If he gets help, real help, & goes into recovery we will talk. Oh & sti & blood tests passed. If not he will not have a life with us.
If he stays a drug user, I almost wish he would remain nasty & difficult all the time. It's much easier to stick with my decision that way & not doubt myself!
And anvilhead11, no I don't want 'that' around us but I feel like I can't just kick him to the kerb just yet. We have 2 children together. I won't be enabling him anymore but if we wants help I will assist (from a distance!).
I have butterflies in my stomach now. I have a bad feeling this is the calm before the storm...
Thx