Hello S,
Look how far you've come!! I feel so blessed to know you and to have had the pleasure (?) to see your posts when you first got to SR (not pleasure in the sense of how you were suffering, but in seeing your growth).
I think our experiences are/were pretty similar.... I celebrated 3 months clean from those demon oxys and hydros on June 18th, and, like you, I don't ever want to go back where I was.
That cold turkey withdrawal was brutal, and yet, I am glad I did it. I wish I had talked to my prescribing doctor first, but that is water under the bridge.
Your post today is so encouraging to all - newbies, and some of us with a little bit or a lot of clean time. You offer hope, support, and encouragement and that is what SR is all about.
Keep up the good work!!!