Originally Posted by
Pat S 
Down time is my biggest trigger. Bored? Why not get hammered? (Says the AV)...
Pat
Ugh the AV. I cried for two hours straight yesterday because my AV wouldn't SHUT UP. I feel like it gets stronger and more persistent as time is going on now.
Reminds me of my young son when he asks for something that he can't have. He starts by asking mildly and calmly, and then cranks it up a notch each time I say no until he has an all-out hysterical fit.
Today my AV is telling me that it's ok to drink for a little while longer since I just started AA and am not working the steps yet - that I'll stop when I really buckle down and start working the steps with a sponsor. And that as long as I'm going to AA, even if I'm drinking, at least I've admitted I have a problem and am working on it. Stupid, stupid thoughts.
