Good morning Marchers!
Yesterday I was really feeling mad that I am an addict. So I can NEVER have anything. I can never take something to relax. I was feeling like, how long do I have to keep this up? When is this ride over? Feeling like I'm walking in a circle around the playground while everyone else gets to go in and play. That's how I was feeling.
I am clean and sober, of course. I could never go through the "clean up" again. Just feeling mad about that. I usually try to think of all the positive outcomes of being clean and enjoy life, but I was just having one of those days when I needed to just be mad. It's done.
I'm glad you are all here. That playground doesn't look like that much fun anyway. I'll find another.