I am eager to get to that sunny place - but I know I have some way to go. I spent all day at Alanon meetings and then came back hoping for a nice evening.
I had a hot shower washed my hair and made a lovely meal . Then out of the blue I sat and cried - all I could think was why doesn't he want me? why does he want her and not me?
Insanity I'm sure, maybe ego maybe - but it sucks and I can't think of anything else I can do right now except keep processing the pain.