Good for you!
EG is right, sometimes we need to seek
professional help to untangle ourselves
from the spiderweb of lies and deceipt.
Make no mistake about it, though,
spiders don't like their webs destroyed!
Expect some blowback.It is in your power
to seek counseling---- a close in professional
who can easily see patterns that might be
translucent to us as we are too close and
emotionally compromised.
The next time you find yourself abused
by an addict-----told directly or by
proxy that ANY of this is YOUR fault......I want
you to run outside, look up, and say:
THIS IS ALL MY FAULT AND THE SKY IS GREEN!
.......then you will have said two things of
equal (and nonexistent) veracity.Two lies, as
it were.Both equally incorrect.
If by chance the sky IS green .....then I guess it
IS your fault...
.......but I wouldn't hold my breath on that one!