I took a risk and talked to a man (friend of a friend) who is 18 years sober for an hour. And agreed to meet him bcause we have so much in common.
Even though a big part of me was so nervous that I didn't want to take the call or meet him.
I honestly wanted to say no I can't talk. Though I could... and wanted to.
But I can't say "No, go away," Because them are drinking words.
Because that road is the road to drinking.
And I don't walk on that street anymore.