NSI- Congrats on your 60 days!! Try to just take things one day at a time and not worry about stuff until it actually happens. I have found some of the things I've been the most stressed about simply didn't turn out how I'd imagined.
Ladybug- way to go on 38 days. Keep hanging in there!
Today is day 65 for me.
Felt like I was about to have a panic attack over a social engagement I had this morning. I got it together though, told myself that I needed to stop panicking, that it wouldn't help. My new favorite thought lately is "I take care of myself." That ran through my head. I simply told the people that I didn't feel well and that they would have to carry on without me. It was simple and easy. They said they hoped I got to feeling better and went on with things. And the panic just evaporated. I took care of myself and now I feel better.
Gee, what a concept!
I like the way it sounds: I TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. It means that I'm responsible for me. It also means that I'm NOT responsible for others. (I've been learning A LOT from the Friends and Family threads about codependency, thinking about the way others view us, thinking about relationships I've had with addicts/alcoholics, etc.) I really recommend reading threads in different parts of SR because you never know what you might find that adds some perspective.
I have been noticing that I am prone to extreme anxiety quite frequently. I don't know if I have panic attacks or just get really panicky. This isn't really a new thing, but when I was drunk all the time, I don't think I was as aware of my feelings. I am wondering if it has gotten worse recently, if it may be a side-effect of cutting back on smoking so much weed, or maybe due to smoking weed to start with, or maybe still leftover stuff from quitting drinking. Or maybe a combination.
Everything is/was such a tangled mess of multiple addictions that it can be so hard to figure out what is what. But the web is untangling so much without the cigarettes and alcohol.