By the by, 12 years ago is significant because that's when my son's paternal grandmother used the system to take my son away from me when he was 2 years old (I got pregnant when I was 17 by my son's father who turned out to be abusive. I was a very young and naïve mother with visions and hopes for this happy family. I didn't have a clue what was coming from either of them at the time.) I quit drinking because that was one of the many many hoops I was required to jump to get him back. (My previous record before that was the duration of my pregnancy.) It is a very, very long, unjust and horrible story that I have repressed very deeply and I still have a hard time digging into it too much. I've blocked many of my memories of that time as a coping mechanism. It has surely been a #1 factor in my past downward haphazard spiraling. My son is 14 now and has been raised by his grandmother as she did end up getting her way after a battle from me that lasted for roughly two and a half years.