williala, I can so relate. I get so angry about my husband's drinking and his refusal to get help. I also pour my heart out trying to explain what his drinking does to me and his daughter and all he can do is look at me like I am crazy. I feel crazy half the time, but am starting to understand that my being consumed with worrying about his drinking is what is causing me to feel this way. I am not one to give advice yet as I am in trying to get through the same crap and pull up my "big girl panties" and do what needs to done which I guess is to get out of this 17 year rollercoaster..