I'm digging deep. Really deep. I'm trying to feel something, anything, when it comes to her.
Yes.....Zoso....you do feel something for her. You feel......
Just disdain and disgust.
....and that's ok.
I felt those same feelings toward my XAH for a long time. True healing came one day when I didn't expect it. I just woke up one day and those feelings of disdain and disgust were gone. I forgave him.....not for him but for me. But it took a long time to get there......a really long time.
gentle hugs
ke