Hungry Lonely Tired
I know for a fact that I'm Hungry and Tired. I know what to do about those. Eat and go to bed early. I don't know if I'm Lonely or if my addictive thinking is glamorizing how "things used to be" at the local pub. I just drove by on my way home from my volunteer work and saw a few cars there that I recognized. Honestly, I liked hanging out there and the attention I got from a few of the guys. My logical side knows that it was all bs and part of the bar scene game and that a bar is no place for me to be. Maybe I was using that for the attention as a replacement for the attention I'm not getting in the relationship I am in with my bf. I know I could go to a meeting but I'm exhausted and I frankly don't trust myself to not be home...at least I'm safe here at home on the couch in my jammies and not drinking. Maybe I just need to stop thinking......