Wish I could help more... you being 24 really makes me wanna help you! I first got sober in my mid-late 20's. Wish it had lasted. Would have given me 8 more years of sobriety I can't go and get back.
Just keep seeking to educate yourself on your addiction. Try not to downplay or minimize or rationalize... hoping for the best sounds good, but acting and doing is way better.