Hi Toivo
I ran and hid in my early days of AA, whether it was under the bedclothes or in a bottle/beer glass. But this brought the same $hit I was trying to get away from, alcohol and its four horsemen.
What I do now is pick up the phone and call an AA member. I did not want to at first.... "hell no, why would I want to phone some loser from AA..??". My pride wouldn't let me, and my fear wouldn't let me. I had to drop that pride/fear and pick up the phone. Phoning other members of the fellowship has actually stopped me from drinking several times.
But that's me, hope it helps.
much love
JC