started drinking and using at around 15 years old
I decided that it was for me forever
then after years of suffering brought to myself and loved ones
off and on I hit some AA Meetings

I was playing with this sobriety thing for many years
until something that I had only heard about started happening
never really had one until I was in my fifties
then I started having blackouts
and
doing many things that I would have never chosen to do normally
this brought me to my spiritual knees - been sober since