I know what it does to a child, i grew up with an A father. Im not really just sitting back and waiting. I am but I have some stuff in place where I can make a quick exit if/when I need to. I have somewhat tried to calmly talk to him, as soon as I say something he doesnt like he starts to get unreasonible and angry. The end will never happen without the explosion, thats just not how he works. It doesnt help that there are so many people in this house so i feel like I always have to mantain the peace so no one else gets involved. I have felt so trapped in the past and i still do sometimes but it is much less than before. I told him a few days ago that if he wanted to call me his gf again he had to quit drinking, he actually laughed and mockingly took a drink of his beer. It infuriates me that he takes what I say with so little seriousness. I know I need to demand the respect i want, im just unsure how to do so at this point.