Thank you GrammyB. I'm so sorry your STBAEH was so cruel to you especially when you were sick. I'm glad you said enough. Clearight, it's complicated. I support us and I have barely enough to keep one household going let alone two when I get my own place so I know he'll have financial woes and I still have feelings for him. Also, he's not all bad and when we are having a good day, I keep remembering the good times. Sunday all day he was an angel but then that night he was back to saying we are moving and selling the house and that's the way it is and nothing I say matters. He told me I'd either get on board with his plan and things would be easy or else. It's this constant controlling despite the good times that is helping push me to leave. I've also just started to lately realize that abuse isn't limited to physical actions and has to do with verbal as well. Thank you again for all the strength you give me.