Hi, August.
Sorry you are going through hard times now, I understand you quite well - I''m facing real estate issues myself right now.
Anyway, no drinking yourself to death, ok? Look, we can't escape death anyway - it will wait for us at the end of our life journey. There's no use to hurry to meet it.
I know sometimes it's so hard that you don't think you'll make it. There were times I thought it would be much easier just to step out of window and end it.
Long story short - there's always hope while you are sober.
“Everything will turn out right, the world is built on that.” - I keep telling myself this when it get's hard. And there will be another day, and new hope.
Great job on turning down vodka. Vodka? Please!
Keep your chin up. Find a way to post. Feel free to pm.
More positive vibes to you -stay strong.