Is it alright if I say, you poor kid!
Hand it over honey, and keep seeing the doc til you get some relief.
On my worst days a I always think, there is something wonderful around the corner, and there always is.
Yesterday at work a woman came in and she was talking to her mom on the phone, for a long time, telling her about all the different soups we had in the store. I mean a long time, and she kept saying yes mom, okay mom. When she came to pay for the soup , I said, wow, you are an awesome daughter, she said my mom has cancer, I said, awwwww honey, I'm so sorry, my dad has cancer too. Turns out we had a lot in common, and on top of that, we had a lot of the same feelings. So here I am, and here she is, and I say to her, give you mom a hug from me, and we both wept. It was wonderful, that we found each other, becasue I needed that and so did she.
What you need will most likely appear, you are not destined to a life of being alone, you are far too precious for that.
take good care , Katie xo