Only when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the fear of changing do we change. I made my changes only when the pain brought me to my knees. I wasn't sure if I would survive, but I did, and life is really, really good over here on the other side.
As much as I would like to prevent that pain for others by telling them my story, I know that each person has to live out their own story and feel their own pain. Liz, I can see that pain looming on the horizon for you, but until you see it--and feel it, there is nothing I can say to convince you of it's inevitable arrival. Just know that you will survive, and SR will be here for you when that day comes.
L