Sorry for my internet hissy fit yesterday. ((fini)) ((RR)) ((MoS)) Thank you all for understanding and not judging.
fini- You hit the nail on the head with everything you are saying. Especially the part about making that decision right then. That would not have been wise.
Robby- As you say the "addict-part of you no longer runs the show. " (paraphrase) I like that and last night I kept that in my head. I am not going to allow the beast to be in charge when I most need to be in control.
I have changed. I no longer drink. I must learn to be uncomfortable.
Today I am stressed, overwhelmed but not hungover. I am 80 days sober.
Thank you all for being there.
Jess