Dear Dana,
I understand your feeling. However. Mr. Johnson is right. You must make the decision to free your body and mind of all drugs. Including Methadone. My daughter went into treatment, she was put on Methadone for a detox solution. She was released from treatment, craving the methadone. She became sick and the craving was to great to substain from heroine. She now is in active addiction. She feels she can't quit. I remind her often of the same suggestion, I gave you. We have all been sick from one thing or another. So you throw up for a few days and get the chills. It not as bad as dying from an over dose, or getting a bad batch. Think about it. your never alone.
Make a meeting, get suggestions.