You seem to be the sort that has the ability to be aware of thoughts and observing them. This is a good thing. May I suggest you look into more info about AV and the ability to recognize it? I have found this to be an extremely useful tool in battling my addiction to alcohol.
There is a lot of info on this AV business in the Secular Connections forum here at SR. This thread might be useful to you, it is one person's experience with this AV recognition:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html