Change is so hard!
I'm sooo tired of the lies and manipulations and the broken promises that, sadly, I have to let the man I love go for a while. We've been apart for 4 months and, since he'd rather listen to his dad yell at him than have the woman he says he loves hold him accountable, I've had to make changes:
Instead of the Monday mtg where I might see him....Womens mtg farther away
Instead of Tuesday mtg(again close to home)... AlAnon farther away
Wednesday hes supposed to open a mens mtg so no worry there
Instead of my Thursady mtg where he might show up... Same mtg only AlAnon
Same Friday mtg, screw him, he can sit in the back of the room
We both open Saturday mtg but, if he shows up, which I doubt... Ipod and Bible for me.
Sunday... Day of rest for me.
I hate having to make these changes, since I've been going to my mtgs for the 5 yrs of my sobriety but I know I'll get nothing out of them if I know he's there and I keep trying to save him. If he wants to get sober, there are plenty of guys to help him. Plus, let HIM wonder where I am, for once! And, since 4 months hasn't changed him, maybe 8 months will change me! God willing.