Hi Nowme,
Welcome to SR...Please read pgs 30-33 in big bk & twill explain you're malady. We are alkis so there's always smthg we search for after putting the drink down. My thing is chocolate, coffee & going to meetings. I don't care what AW thinks coz this is my sobriety & its top priority. I don't want to go back where I came from.
As for you doing time next wknd, I can kind of relate to it a bit. Got my 2nd dwi last May & was told if guilty will be looking @ 10 days. I've been sober 11 mths now & gone to so many mtgs plus had an attendance sheet filled @ every 1 of them so my lawyer told me that should work in my favour that the judge will show mercy to me.
Don't give up;there's nthg out there. Being sober & serene is soooo much better