I too had that moment of clarity where I saw my drinking in a new light, with the veil of denial lifted...I clearly saw, like a revelation, where I was headed if I kept drinking. But it didn't take away my complusion to drink. It just led me to acceptance of my problem and the committment to do whatever possible to get and stay sober.
Maybe we only get one "moment" so to speak. You've had yours. You don't need another one to tell you that you are an alcoholic, so I'm not sure what your expectations are for that "moment of clarity," but nothing replaces the hard work of recovery.
But what do I know.
One other thing about my epiphany, I attribute it to my higher power. What's your connection with your HP? Maybe you could pray for a glimpse of that clarity.