Hey Ryan! How about you stop bouncing in and out of AA and just stick around for the long haul. AA isn't rehab. You don't leave there when you get sober. You stay because you need the practice and you need the reminder and you need the people there like they need you. Obviously, your way of living isn't working out for you. If you're like me, exerting your will over your life doesn't work. I know that i'm the last person i should listen to when it comes to how to live my life. If i had my way, i'd drink myself into oblivion all day and all night then sit and wonder why my life is falling apart. Try getting back to AA for the long haul. It just might work and you've got nothing to lose but the baggage you're lugging around.