Having a secret addiction is bad enough.... But when it is out in the public it is exponentially worse. Sounds corny, but you have to stay strong. Get done with your fines. Pay your dept to society.... probation whatever.... I still have nightmares about when I got caught for possession. The shame my family felt.. Get a lawyer. Hopefully they can make your court date fast so the only thing that gets put out in the public is your name is some paper in fine print along with 50 other people.
You have to be honest with your children too. Tell them you made a mistake and now your paying for it. That you hope they will not make the same decision. That you expect better of them. But, we are all human after all. And if anyone is soo perfect let them cast the first stone. It should bounce right off of you!!