I guess I have to admit this, don't I?
Grrr, I caved yesterday. That was quick. 3 days I made it. Work has been particularly stressful and the anxiety got the best of me I suppose. Excuses, excuses! Maybe this will make it easier to stay sober over the upcoming 3 day weekend. It seems the longer I go, the stronger the cravings get. Like I forget all about this icky feeling of guilt. I am really going to have to keep busy, which means getting out of the house. I need a game plan. I've only been living in this area for a couple months, so there are plenty of parks around here that I haven't taken my daughter to yet, including some awesome fountains she would absolutely love. A trip to see my parents is also in order.
I'm not giving up. Did not realize how much I would hate admitting this publicly.
Today is a new day.