O90,
You have taken the first step, you are at the beginning of a tough journey. The destination is fantastic but it will be a rough road at first. The end is worth the means though. Best wishes to you. I hung out/lurked here several times a day here at first and still check in pretty much daily. Never would have made it without the support and reinforcement I've found here on SR. It is a big help to know that you are not ever going to be alone on this trip.
Ask and you will find someone who will listen and give you support/encouragement who has been right where you are anywhere along the way.
Oh and WELCOME!!!!