I too find that when i decided to go back out and drink, i couldn't enjoy myself at all. To be honest, i didn't actually enjoy drinking for a long time before i quit. Also, nothing ruins drinking like having a head full of AA and sobriety. Glad you're back. You may want to write down your experience so you have it for later. How soon we begin to minimalize the effects of our drinking! You will probably have the thought again one day that you can enjoy moderate drinking. An alcoholic's memory is quite selective! I was sober 10 months and i foolishly thought that wine would not get me blasted. Quite wrong of course. Vodka, wine, beer? It all gets you drunk and the old misery settles in you again. Again, i'm so glad you didn't spend a long time back in the drinking world. Welcome back!