Merz77 You can do it but you've got to keep at it, don't worry that you've had a drink just give up tomorrow, get through the day and keep counting , it can be easy it can be dreadful. See your GP they can only be of help and they'd rather know and support, sometimes a few days of pills can really help once those days it's all about working on a new life a different plan, ask your bf to help even join in, think how much money can be saved, holidays. Think of your pride , that's what got me through ?
Eventually I saw it and started not just not drinking but enjoying sobriety.
You found yourself here it's no mistake.
You know the painting the Scream by H Munch, no more days like that and in no time at all you'd be able to buy it !!
Love John.