Today is my 5th week of sobriety and it is hard to describe the feelings. For one it seems a lot longer than that and I just feel so peaceful. My family is proud of me, but most of all I am proud of myself. Thank you everyone on SR for the support. This is my daily must read page.
When I read each post I feel a personal connection. To the newbies like myself who are going through withdrawal and conflict and to those with long-term sobriety who I wish to emulate. Each one of you have a played a positive part in a persons life and choices.
Something I have never revealed. My Father-in-law was a member of AA with over 40 yrs. He lived with my husband and I. He went to meetings daily and saved many lives. On Thanksgiving Day, 2011 he was killed in a car accident at age 80. His funeral was so full of members from AA who talked about his contribution and help with their sobriety. He was truly loved by all.
The sad thing is, he died with the guilt of knowing he could not help me. Yes, he tried hard over the years by taking me to meetings, bringing me reading material and talking about the steps. I was in the midst of an alcoholic haze and could not see the way out. I even left my family that Thanksgiving to go with a friend out of town so I could drink and not be hassled. I was not even home when the police came to the door to notify us that he was life flighted to the hospital.
In addition to that, my only brother and only living relative, committed suicide in January, 2011 - 10 months before Grandpoo died. He was an alcoholic. Shot himself in the head because his wife wanted a divorce. Was found in a hotel room with a half empty gallon of Whiskey beside the bed.
Well I will end this story by saying - my sobriety today is dedicated to Grandpoo and Mike. I will continue to battle this disease and win for myself. But today I am thankful and wish that the two people I loved so much could see me now.
