thank you so much to everyone. I am so glad I found this site. It's hard hearing that heroin IS his love, not me, but I know it, I knew it all along. I just thought for some reason, our love was greater, our story more fantastic, that it would make him realize that he needs to stop. But, I know that's not true. Maybe on my end it is true, and I just need to let it go. I am going to find a meeting today. I hope there is one available. Thanks again for all your words.