New to recovery...again?
I am effing struggling with this. Was in rehab for a month about a year ago, came out feeling calm, good, going to AA meetings, everything good for 8 months. Now I am back in the insanity....back for detox 2 months ago....then again went out a couple of weeks ago...detoxed myself at home alone...can't even begin to say what I went through. After staying clean a week, I went out again today and am now under the influence. I don't want this, but it won't let go..... one drink and I am off to the races....don't have much of a family or friends (lost them all in my earlier drinking days)...
Feeling miserable....yet again! Can't believe that I am finding this so difficult when I have been able to do so much more in my life....is there any hope? Or is my life going to be in consumed by this?