Hi kpk - I'm so glad you joined us. Good that you realize there's a problem and have reached out. Some never see what they're doing to themselves.
As for stopping & then reintroducing - I tried that many times. It always led me back to drinking to excess. I'd vow to just have a drink, but it was always the whole bottle. I was in my 50's before I finally got it - I can't touch the stuff. No such thing as drinking in moderation for me.
You said the last 7 days have been great - and that you love hangover free mornings. I wonder why we can't be satisfied with that good feeling - why do we have to sabotage ourselves? I'd just start to feel like part of the human race again - and to celebrate I'd 'reward' myself with drinks.
I'm glad you're taking a look at this now, kpk. I hope you'll keep posting.