Arg, I know that feeling. I tend to be a 'binge' drinker in terms of pattern...not daily, but when I do, it's generally all out. But it's best not to be too embarrassed by the stuff you did...it's in the past, all we can do is consider it, and move on. Everyone makes mistakes, after all, and there's many worse things people do in the world. Go easy on yourself, and keep trying. I find the more I beat myself up about these things, the more I want to drink.