Thank you wiscsober. I hear so many good things about the nar anon and his counselor told me that I needed to go. I just can't even move right now. I don't want to get dressed, do my hair, make up or anything. I just went to sit here and be on internet and watch tv...which is so unhealthy.
I was so much stronger a few days ago. Probably because I was so angry. But now anger has subsided and I just long for him to be home. But I keep trying to remember and keep it in the front of my mind everything he has put me through.
Just why after 13 years of a great marriage and great life would he do something he knows is so dangerous and addicting? He has screwed up both of our lives. He doesn't get it.
God, I hate him but I love him more...I just hope he is safe and doesn't die. I am so scared for him.