llarson though you may feel and think you are alone...I guarantee you are not. We are here.
Please call your local Naranon or Alanon hotline...AA/NA if needed...talk to people who have gone through exactly what you are now...
Please go with what your gut and rational thoughts tell you...you are not the problem...you are not to blame in what so ever manner...
It will be hard...already is...keep posting...
Keep your distance...and focus on yourself...
I am pulling for you...