For me, things progressed until there was not a single solitary reason to drink, and a thousand reasons why not to drink. What sealed it for me was achieving the realization that there were a million reasons to be sober, things I could be, do and have only if I were to get and stay sober.
Believe in yourself, believe in your ability, and believe that you deserve a life without addiction, and with your own measure of peace, beauty and joy.