Hello, pattyj, you are very courageous to make this difficult decision! I admire you!
You said "I have to fix myself before I can be with anyone". (Sorry, still haven't mastered the partial quote option).
This really resonates with me. I kept thinking finding another partner to fill the void after my husband died was the answer, and all it got me was 2 idiot boyfriends, and I probably drank more during the time with these men, I felt so unhappy, but sort of stuck, afraid to be alone.
Now I'm trying to think in terms of "well, I can be my own best friend" and look after myself well.
Yes, you are young, and I'm glad you are excited for the future!
Good luck!