Hi Tarnz
Hi Tarnz.....what an awesome post
It seems that you have had a few rock bottoms, but this is a decisive moment in your life....its good not to lose touch with that desolation and utter despair...The disease of alcoholism wants you to forget that....Throw yourself into which ever program of recovery works for you, boots and all, and trust that things will get better.
Cos they do and we are here for you.
V