So how is your brain doing? I went through these same symptoms several times. Each time I thought I was going to get hit by a car trying to cross the street.
I too am afraid of the system and normal treatment. I've been through intensive OP. I know my brain is lacking vitamins and my pancreas is probably screaming at me.
I try to do it underground by slamming grandpa shakes and hippie juice which is packed with b vitamins. I just learned today sugary drinks hurt the liver even more. They screw up your bowel as well.
It's very difficult to stop when you feel like total crap and you know one drink will make you somewhat functional. The trick is to keep the brain working, at least somewhat.
If you have all these symptoms and feel nausea it seems hopeless. I would love to have an IV stuck in me for a couple of weeks and have nurse attention but I have to kick it up and get active again. Let's hope and pray for both of us.